Here is a little back story .. We are pagan and in our house we do not celebrate Christmas, we do Yule. For us Yule always starts on the 21st this is sometimes the shortest day of the year which is the actual solstice but this year that falls today. Our gifts and merry feasting and fire is always on the 21st and when the solstice doesn’t fall on the 21st I use the actual date to do my thing.
So yesterday started early but not too early, the bird was already in the oven so the house smelt like roast turkey.
We opened our gifts, the kids loved theirs. My youngest got art supplies, books and ninjago which he hasn’t stopped playing with only to eat, while my eldest had bits and pieces but his favourite was his smart phone which he also hasn’t stopped playing with. Ross seemed happy with his gifts and I am over the moon with mine.
My main gift off Ross is a new for me camera,
This automatically set off lots of anxiety, it’s a bloody expensive camera for one, and I know I am really going to be able to improve my photography with it if I could find the confidence to use it. I love my little point and click which Ross also got me last year for my birthday but this is a huge jump up from that. There is no way I can subtly walk round to take photos with it.
I didn’t think about it too much yesterday as my mind was on other things but it was playing on my mind. Today is different though and I have let those fears go and now I am really looking forward to working out what all the buttons do, I may even get some software !! So this afternoon I am going to try and work out how to use it. If I get time in-between relaxing of cause. Oh which reminds me I have decided to take the rest of the week off. With the exception of making one hat as I really need to relax and take some mega me time. Both of my children are going to go to their dads for Christmas which will be my first break for a very long time and I cannot wait. I am looking forward to me time on Saturday and spending some me and Ross time on Sunday without either of us working, having to making sure the kids are happy, not doing house work etc etc
Tonight I am aiming to have another little fire .. In our chiminea this time and not on the open ground. I have already started burning the Yule log, lit from last years and there is still enough left from last night’s fire to carry the flame onto tonight. I am going to be using this fire to do my Yule ritual/spell work so I also have that to prepare for this afternoon, along with keeping an eye on the kids and usual mum stuff of cause.
I hope my friends out there are having a great Yule time .. Something that I learnt yesterday that may help people worrying over Christmas … perfection is subjective, for me yesterday was perfect. I may not have done everything I wanted to do, get all of my friends and family gifts but when it came down to it yesterday was still perfect. The kids were so grateful for their gifts, behaved, were happy, we ate plenty.. OMG did we eat plenty. I got to spend the day with people I love being around, some were not there is person but in my heart they were here sharing the day with me. You choose how to react to the stresses of this time of year whether they are your stresses or those that others put on you. Choose to ignore any judgments and have the best day you have ever had.