Well the first ‘working’ week of the New Year has not gone too bad; it has had ups and downs but so far so good. I have decided to do a Saturday blog round up of the week. Whether I have ranted or not about things before hand. It is mainly for me so I can keep a track on things.
I have managed to stick to my healthier eating plan, no sod it days and even though I feel a little hungry I feel better for it. And it looks as though I have lost a few inches around my waist. Got to love getting rid of the bloat. I do need to get out of the house at some point and go for a walk but at the same time I hurt lots. I am planning on a walk into town today though as I need a couple of things.
sore subject, kind of. There are lots of things I want to do but I need money to do it. My only income from work has now stopped meaning the rent money for the space in the shop has to come out of my own money. I am building a plan of action though instead of feeling down on myself.
I will start off with my youngest, goodness knows what I am going to do with him right now, and the one to one I need to give him with everything is starting to exhaust me, not to mention the knock on effect is that I am hardly getting anything done. He has been back to school for three days, fist day he was taken out of class for behaviour that apparently can only be described as “inciting a riot” so he has a detention on Monday!! The school have said they want him to also have a new PE kit, which I am not willing to buy. The total cost of it is £70 which I do not have, so I have told them to help him find the one he lost at school, along with his 5 jumpers, his winter coat and glasses. He has been doing his homework with the help of the rest of the house. Go Team. Yesterday he came back from school with an award for most improved student in English.
Now I move onto my eldest son. He started back to college on Tuesday, much to his surprise as he thought he started back on Thursday. Now for the part that makes me cry every time I think about it. He is 18 tomorrow. My son will become an adult. When the fuck did that happen? The scary thing is when I was his age I already had him and was getting ready to get married two days after. Needless to say the marriage didn’t last long, but you live and learn. Yesterday I spent the day making his cake for his party today. I am doing my best not to cry… i never wanted my boys to grow up and that seems to be another thing they are ignoring right now. He is having his party this evening followed by going out on the town so at the strike of midnight he can buy a drink. His only form of ID being his passport so I hope he doesn’t lose it.
The rest of the week,
has been awesome. My other half had 6 days off and didn’t go back to work until yesterday so I have had loads of support with the kids, house work and we even went out to take photos with our new cameras. We have matching bags. May I say now I LOVE MY CAMERA AND TAKING PHOTOS. Letting go of all judgments with my art and photography has been really freeing, I have not overcome everything yet as after all it has only been a week. It has not been easy and I did break down the other day over home work my youngest had brought home. My head instantly got full of voices shouting at me explaining how I was stupid and would do nothing with my life than have kids. Gee thanks childhood for leaving me with that one. I have also enjoyed plenty of snuggle time with my man, my goodness do I miss him when he is not here. We have been together for 7 years this year and no itch in sight, in fact our relationship and bond is stronger now than it has ever been. I finally have the relationship I have wanted for many years and I am not going to ruin it by going back to old habits, they are all back in last year and can stay there.
So now I must go and get ready to venture into town. I wouldn’t mind taking my camera but if I do that I may end up taking longer and I have the icing to do for the cake, putting things up in the attic, making food and taking some time for me.