So the past couple of weeks have been a challenge, routine wise I am keeping more than on top of it which is great as my energies have been needed in other places.
my youngest son’s behaviour problems have stepped up a notch and after not returning home from school until 8:50pm I am now having to do the school run, the first time in a couple of years. I did take him to the Dr who was less than helpful. The exhausting part is keeping him on track as this requires more one to one than an 11 year old usually needs. The positives at school have been increasing though and he has reached a level 6 in art.
The other thing that seems to be sucking up my energy is my battle with fear. I am at the stage where I want to move on with my life and career meaning I now more than recognise how much I hold myself back by paying more attention to the crippling fear I get in certain situations. Mixed with me being physically unwell has taken a toll.
Monday is lunar Imbolc and a new moon which is entering Aquarius all pointing to refreshing your life, new starts and taking time to focus on the future and those around you. This can make you notice the area of your life that you are free meaning you can apply this to being free in the areas you want to. I have planned spell for strength and new growth, with a little added courage to get over fears thrown in for good luck. I am a huge fan of the more practical side to magick which for me now comes like a second nature as opposed to the more structured ritual palaver.
I am also going to sit down with the kids to see if they wish to do something to help them and go from there. With my youngest son the plan is tomorrow for him to make a vision board. I will suggest this to my eldest too but him being 18 and rather anti me right now I am not sure he would go for it. Either way I am going to say that they need a little time to reflect on the past year and offer even more of my support to them if they need it. I’m also planning on adding to my Grimoire more this weekend, as well as working on my vision book. To end the weekend I plan on doing myself a card reading to help me gain more focus as well as the sense of control back over my life.
So this weekend is a time in general for reflection and some time with my other half who has the day off. We have already been out to take photos. My head wasn’t really in the right place so spent most of the time in my head trying to work out if all this stress is going to be worth it. Again the universe gave me a sign of encouragement (this is how i choose to take things like this) as I spotted a frog coming out of hibernation in a pool of water in a dip at the side of the path. It took my other half a while to spot it from the path but it sat there quite happily while we carefully went down the embankment to get a closer look and of cause many photos.
The Frog represents healing, metamorphosis, transitions, opportunity, rebirth, renewal and dreaming not to mention spiritual evolution. All in all a very good sign for the period of my life I am in right now, the thing I have to now do is stop thinking and start doing.
so how has your new year been? things still on track?