It has been a week of fresh starts, new growth and achievements.
Monday 23rd was not only the new moon, lunar Imbolc but also a pagan new year. Some celebrate the Celtic New Year at the start of November, some at Imbolc, not being of any tradition we honour both. What I normally do is start the reassessing the past year, what path I am on in my life journey and start implementing things from November, this then evolves into the big push at Imbolc. Both involve rituals and spells with lots of personal growth. During the build up to Imbolc I had decided things with family life had got stagnant, far too much negativity and we had been stuck in a rut. Not only with myself but also the kids so things had to change so I planned a ritual for us all to have a fresh start. It was emotional but really put a spark into the start of the week.
My eldest hasn’t been very well and I think this is what has caused him to be rather grumpy I did a reading for him last Sunday which freaked him out and really made him think about and asses his life, now he is 18 he has to pay board (a 1/3 of his income) while still doing chores. It can be seen as harsh, mainly by him but I feel it is important for him to learn life lessons, after all of he was to live on his own he wouldn’t only have to pay rent and bills but do all the house work from folding washing to cleaning the toilet so in the scheme of things he has it pretty darn good. He was also feeling down at the prospect of being single for Valentine’s Day this was all made better though by a young lady who seems to of swept him off his feet so he is currently walking around the house with a huge smile on his face.
My youngest who has previously been struggling with life got really emotional Monday evening and we had a good long awaited heart to heart. He has been trusted to go to and from school on his own all week and has not let himself down all week, this makes me very happy indeed and he hasn’t seem to mind me making a huge deal over how proud I am of him. I may as well of been at an interview for cbbc lol. We have spent the whole week forgetting about the mess of his room, leaving it for us to work on together next week leaving this week to building back a positive bond. It has been so rewarding for us both and let’s face it who doesn’t enjoy forgetting about all the crap in the house and just sit there snuggling watching TV? Luckily for me his favourite programme at the moment is CSI so I do not have the ‘joy’ as some of my tweet friends of watching Balamory and other what seem like scary children’s programmes. He is currently at his dad’s so I am hoping his behaviour doesn’t take a dip for the worst when he gets back.
For me I have been facing my fears and really putting my all into my self confidence. I have wore figure showing tops all week instead of hiding below layers, as the week got on I even started noticing I was checking myself out in reflections! Confidence issues are what hold me back from having the life I want so it makes sense to work on this and as planned it has had a knock on effect with the rest of my life, including business. I was in the paper .. Looking 15 may I add, the piece was for The Crafty Rummage, a shop opened by a dear friend in my town that sells clothes, crafts and art from local artists. I am one of those artists. I have been really putting effort into my business, my daily routine, with a slight adjustment, has been working out very well. I have been marketing myself well and promoting what it is I do, I have known for a long time that I am essentially my product and this made me feel uncomfortable for a while but I have now swallowed this way of thinking that it is a bad thing, it isn’t I just do not know of a more hippie way of putting it, so it goes back down again to wording and labels. My mantra this week has pretty much been focused on mini cheer leading statements, Monday I managed to visualise sitting in the retreat I want to create in front of a fire remembering sitting in my garden where I actually was saying to myself “see some of it was hard but you bloody well did it” this has really helped so thank you universe.
This evening I have a kid free house (so this section may be a little rushed as my other half has just got to his house from work and will be here soon) our relationship has come on leaps and bounds, I am in the relationship I have always pictured to be ‘the perfect relationship’ I never thought though I would actually get it. He supports me and I have back up with the kids. It is taking them some time to realise the mamma isn’t on her own in this now. Plenty of family time has been planned to make sure we get a nice even balance in our lives, yes we all have responsibilities with ground rules etc but we can also have fun together too. We all have cameras so it makes sense to pack up for the day and go for a drive. My other half is also off all of next week. Challenging as I still have lots to do but I am more than willing to put as much of this off as I can, it isn’t often I get him to myself for a day let alone five of them. By the sounds of it I have my own personal photography course taught by him next week, and as influenced by not just a mummy and mummy on the edge I am going to be doing my take on the light photography.
So that is pretty much my week. It has been a pretty darn good week too how was yours?