I am not liking this fact, I love it when the kids are not at school or college. The no rush mornings are my favourite and a nice way to start the day, just snuggled under Ned, with a cup of coffee and a small boy still sleepy with messy hair snuggled up next to me, while my eldest grunts his answers because his voice box seems to stay asleep a lot longer than the rest of his body.
Other than that things seem to be going from bad to worse or more challenging, depending on which way you want to look at it but either way they both mean the same thing.
I have not managed to get a single bit of work done this week, I have been thinking of course if that counts but I really don’t think it does. I am trying mainly to sort out the finances and re do all of my budgets, yes again! Especially after the break down I had in Sainsbury’s yesterday and as far as public humiliation goes this was one of my best.
There is no point in dwelling on it though, that isn’t going to help me in the slightest. Don’t get me wrong I am still getting overwhelmed throughout the day resulting in more than a few tears, so I sit and cry it all out, make myself a cuppa, deep breath, light a candle or some incense and carry on. I am glad it is half term to be honest; I wasn’t looking forward to it much as I was worried that I would run out of food before the end of the week. So far so good and the kids have not gone without a single meal.
I have not seen much of my eldest, being 18 he tends to go and do whatever he wants which of course I put a stop to just to make his life a misery … his view when I ask him to do chores and college work. His attitude towards me has even been picked up on by his friends who cannot quite believe how he talks to me, again things are great with us until he has to do something he doesn’t want to do, I think he is going through the phase where he thinks the world owes him so he should have as much fun as possible without any responsibilities which apparently is normal for his age so I am not too worried but I am keeping an eye on this.
My youngest is still being as good as gold, still not one single time out in almost two weeks now. We have been busy busy busy all half term, making things out of clay, making crystals, abstract art & photography etc and tomorrow we are making jewellery out of old broken jewellery, nothing too fancy but it is a chance to sit still for a few hours at least as my word he takes up a lot of energy. He is currently off watching The Muppets at the pictures with the young carers. Which is why I have time to sit down and write this before going onto the lovely task of finances and back to the drawing board with my business. *sigh* I keep plodding a long which is all I can do