All day has been spent on working out routines, budgets, not to mention sorting out my accounts ready for self assessment next month… it has been a very shit year for business. I am not getting half as much as needed every day and what with my youngest needing more one to one these days no real work can get done from 4pm. This is driving me nuts. My other half is now on ‘the later shift’ meaning i get to spend the morning with him, but this also means that I have not been able to do any work until after lunch. If any money is to be made this year then something is going to have to give and my feelings right now are that I will be the one breaking. Which is exactly what I am doing right now …. breaking
I have decided that through no choice of my own the only person I can fully rely on is myself. For the past goodness know how many years i have had to let so many people down because i have been let down by others and the only way i can attend any events this year is to take my youngest with me, which then leaves me with the problem of “how the heck can i look after a child while i am working. My eldest son was given the responsibility of it but that hasn’t turned out too well. So there we go my challenge a head has been made more of a challenge. Wicked…. said in a very sarcastic pissed off type of way.
So far my average day has to start at least an hour earlier than before, no days off in the slightest for at least this month as I need to clock in over 40 hours a week to get myself caught up.
What did I let myself in for all those years ago ..
Now that is out of my system i should go and dry my eyes, take a deep breath and carry on regardless.