As written on my iPhone so the lay out may be off slightly
It’s no surprise to some if I point out that I am a bit of a hippie, not that I really like stereo types but I am of a different subculture trying to get by with the rest of the so called Normal culture which can be quite hard. It doesn’t stop me of course but what I have found as I am getting older that my lifestyle is getting more and more inline with my spiritual side.
I question everything which is something I have always done but these questions always used to end up in judgment where as no I ponder on things, see things from another’s point of view taking everything else into consideration, I no longer feel trapped to a line of thinking but instead feel open to every possibility and accept life without generalisations or judgment.
I have also felt a yearning to be even closer to the natural world as a way to always feel connected and grounded, again with judgments and I have found that again this has lead to more self evaluating.
My spiritual beliefs are very important but it still felt like there was a barrier between my spiritual self and my actual self, this didn’t sit comfortably with me at all. So I looked at my lifestyle, my goodness there is a lot creating that barrier. Society in general isn’t much of a help at times, you have the rules and norms to fit into … Then I thought why? Ok we have the obvious laws and rules that are there for a more harmonious society, as a culture of social animals we need these to stop pure chaos. Then I started thinking about the norms, the unwritten rules of society, things that people do. so you could say I chose to experiment on myself a bit with the things that I did just because it was what you did. Thinking about it now I started doing this seven years ago, for me this is when the journey of self discovery and acceptance started and how long I have had dreads for. Then I went through years if therapy, learning, more learning and lots of “a ha” moments
Then came the mooncup. For as long as I can remember I always liked the idea of them, but that was as far as it went, I’ve spoken about the eww factor before and have lots of friends who still do the eww. ” eww I could never do that, it’s gross, I wouldn’t be able to do it I know I wouldn’t” I was once that person so know its only mind over matter most of the time.
Then came being barefoot, it is something I have always enjoyed doing but in the privacy of my own home and garden, you know because “you just don’t do it out in public” my good friend started doing it, and for a while I used him to see how he coped with everyday life as a barefooter. I feel the cold really easily and I’m the first to admit for a while I used this as an excuse of why I didn’t. My feet are always the first to get cold then once I realised I was making up excuses I thought I’d give it a go. Nearly six months into it, yes my feet get cold but most of the time only when I’m sat around not doing anything, I’m not stupid and watch where I walk too, something I’d ‘never’. Thought of doing until the rest of the world went out if there way to tell me, there seems to be one lady though who works at one of our local shops that gets quite disheartened when I tell her I still have not sliced my feet open yet!! I will put something on my feet, ie my vibram five finger shoes, if and when it gets too cold outside. What I have noticed is how much more chilled I feel, even in a stressful social situation I feel more grounded but the other thing I have noticed, which I didn’t think I would was the improvement in my circulation. I have a few issues with my back not being at its best so I thought my circulation issues were because of that, a lot of it is but I have had less cramps and numbness in my feet and toes than before.
Next was the whole no pants malarky, which I’ve never really enjoyed wearing. It started without choice, my limited pant supply had ram out before wash day, the thought of trying to find green knickers again made me want to cry so I just went without them for a day, oooooh my goodness did it feel good, and very free, I was a little worried at first when someone said “but what about THAT time of the month!!” Then replied with a “No problem for me for I use the mooncup” honestly I sounded as though my pants should of been over a pair of tights as I stood there with my hand on my hips superman style. In the past six months I have not had a single case of thrush when I used to get it at least once a month. Nothing has changed other than the no pants, I still keep my foo fresh as I did when I wore them and my diet hasn’t changed either. I do not wear skirts or dresses without leggings or trousers so for those days where I want to still cartwheel in the park I can without scaring small children.
The next thing is still a work in progress, the pain in the ass that is keeping hair that isn’t on your head in a pleasing manner. Pleasing for who I first though… Ohhhh pleasing for sex appeal is more like it. Which ever form of hair removal you choose it makes no bloody difference, it still grows back and goes through the itchy phase then you have to either shave, cream or get them yanked out one way or another. I always try and limit my waste into landfill etc so frown at using a razor even though its my go to option. Creams are too chemically and waxing costs a fortune. So I bought an eppilater. It went ok on my legs, no real pain but when it came to under the arm Oh My Fucking Gods!!! I have even more respect to the ladies I know who have tattoos under their arms. I am not doing that again. Ever … Unless you are going to pay me a decent amount of money or can offer something that will make it worth my pain.
So for two months my hair has been left to grow, my only worry was that my other half would freak out or that my son would announce to the world if he noticed, which he has done on both accounts and you know what? I’m still alive and my other half has not been put off sex. I have approached him on the subject to which he replied ” errr hmmmm You’re not going to grow a beard are you? i don’t mind if you forget for a week but I like a nice trimmed girl friend” we had a little conversation about it, and he has said that he doesnt really mind, that ” with the current climate it isnt like im going to see much of you under two layers of thermals, two duvets and hot water bottles but as long as you don’t look like an ape I don’t mind so much” what made me giggle is that he thought I’d been in trimmed for a week not a month and again it’s not actually put him off lol
I may ask him again once I have let him feel the epilation process a little as most men moan about having to shave their faces yet expect us ladies to be trimmed to their pleasure.
In the past month it has been nice not shaving and keeping things trim and I know that if I were single I would most certainly not go through the de furring hassle in the slightest. Armpits may get more of a shave, not epilation! just for him but as for my legs I may leave them for a little longer.