This afternoon I
I decided to completely ignore the real word and take myself off to enjoy the energies of the sanctity that is my bedroom
I’m really not well so had set small boy up with the responsibility of doing as much of his home work unaided leaving the hardest for last. I took cookies, a drink, phone and note book with the intention of having a nap or doodling. I took my pain killers and got very comfy
I did neither sleep or doodle in stead I did something I never normally do. I started to sketch out some of the ideas that have been going around in my head for two days. I was telling my inspirational friend and some of my peers from the local art group, both are loving my work and seeing me grow as an artist. But it dawned on me the other day that the biggest gift I have given myself is the permission to be creative without judgment, giving me the confidence to just create and so it seems finally be able to put pen to paper as a way to get a small amount of organisation to this cluttered creative side to my brain. I feel so blessed right now
The second greatest thing I have done for myself is give myself permission to take a mini vacation. Sat all warm and closet in bed under my tree, faery lights on with omnia playing softly in the back ground it may not what I had planned but it was certainly what I needed. Small boy also did rather well with his homework, the confidence he gained and the pride he earned In being good while rested meant he completed all of what he said he needed to do. I explained that he knows with his inner truth if he is being honest with me and that he is the one who will face sanctions at school if it isn’t the case. We also spoke about how situations like this are here to earn trust which in turn leads to more privileges. He got out his lap top and did another half an hour of work.