Today was all focused on helping small boy to understand mindfulness … Yup I’m going with the whole holistic approach with him, slowly and at his own pace. The idea is to start work on his confidence and concentration so to tie in with Nirvana Day we decided to teach each other origami. We sat and worked through the instructions of the crane, which with the thick paper we had was quite hard and frustrating at times, small boy got annoyed and wanted to quit but didn’t, we started deep breathing and learning how to focus on what you were doing with listening to judgments. nothing got thrown and he ended up making a couple which is very good for him.
I am going to look for thinner paper though to make it easier and then we plan on trying more origami.
Then small boy taught me how to make an origami piano which may I add is bloody awesome and he was a very good teacher.
One thing I am planning on doing is looking more into some of the Buddhist homeschooling pages i found. Buddhism and paganism link in quite nicely but also they have ideas and lessons to teach mindfulness to children, I am use to teaching it to adults so this has already started to help me adapt emotional wellbeing to help him. The meeting at camhs went ok this week but Ritalin was mentioned for his behaviour quickly followed by a swift No from me. For me this isn’t an option. I am not saying that medication is evil or doesn’t work I am saying that I am not interested in changing my son, my aim is to teach him how to be himself while being able to function in society, understand the rules and norms within society but most of all for him to have confidence in himself and his ability. School have knocked this out of him so I have many years to put right.
Right now it is a struggle at times, my mind slips in and out of sadness and hurt but luckily for me I’ve gone through many years of therapy, many years of having to pick myself up, kick myself up my ass and get some more strength from within to keep on pushing forwards. So that’s what I have to do, it’s what needs to be done, no point bitching about it …. Well ok a little moan every now and again, the odd rant here or there but that’s therapeutic and I have to remember my own mental health so if I didn’t let it out I wouldn’t be able to go through my process of “end of the world what am I going to do” followed by crying, then sleep then finally my brain going ” right that’s enough of that young lady lets go kick some ass”
And on that note I am going to go to bed, it’s Friday night and there is a sleeping pill with my name on it …. As the saying goes so to speak. I’m still not sleeping properly so when things get like this one night a week I take a sleeping pill prescribed by the dr… The herbal ones didn’t work, neither did the other over the counter ones.
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