I am a little annoyed that this didn’t post when it was supposed to of done and now with the wordpress updates I am getting use to the new layout *le sigh* all bits were correct at the time of when I originally meant to post it
Today 13 is the magick number, not 3 and not 7 but 13. Why? ….. Because small boy has become a teenager!!!
No Kevin moment either in fact so far it’s gone quite smoothly.
So far today we’ve been for breakfast at his favourite place to eat, had a little shop in HMV and now home he’s quite happily playing minecraft in his room meaning I can get some work done, or in my case planning work as I’ve taken the day off.
Last night i was sat up reading more of Lisa’s book …. which is free today
As some people know I have always struggled with doing things for me, with no other purpose other than for my enjoyment as everything I do mainly revolves around
small boy Hmmm need to come up with another name. The Mummy Whisperer suggests you go through her six steps steadily … Never Being one to like being told what to do and using the reasoning of that I have already stated doing most of what she suggests I’ve pretty much finished the book. I shall of course be doing another blog post in this at a later date. But what has been the main outcome of reading this is the sense of permission I felt from it. Permission to live my life how I want it and she’s helped with letting me see things from a different perspective.
I’ve been a mother since I was 17, it’s all I have known and my goodness society puts so much expectations on you that unless you are strong enough to swim against the tide of judgments before you know it your children have grown up and you are left with this huge question mark of not knowing what to do next. This happened to me partly when my eldest son left home last year, now my youngest is 13 I have come to think about it all over again.
I’m expected to be there and do everything for everyone else for fear of upsetting them, my feelings and my own problems do not come into it, if i start focusing on myself, my own health, my own family then I get judged for being a bad person and not caring about others, which then upsets them and me. Do you know who’s fault this is? Mine!!! I have done this to myself as I’ve always put myself last, would go out of my way to always be there for others even if it meant that the things in my life