Some of you may know that I have the pleasure of being labeled by the mental health team with several different ‘illnesses’ one of which is SAD this makes winter a horrid time not just for me but those around me. once september is over the symptoms start and usually goes unnoticed until i am a daily blubber mess by November with my first emotional break down at the end of November early December which prepares every one for the major melt down around Yule. It saddens me to say that both of my boys have a few memories of mum going nuts on Yule day itself after being over whelmed with self judgments, raging self hatred and the obsessions that every thing has to be perfect which it isn’t going to be as i can’t provide properly for my own children, the slightest thing will set me off into melt down and i can honestly say that i would of been sectioned quite a few times if it wasn’t for the fact I stopped calling the crisis line years ago and have always refused to seek help in time of a crisis because I know what it all entails. Its been 9 years since I have taken any medication for any of the above, choosing instead the slower but more effective therapy approach which help for 9 months of the year, Winter was always a different story. For years people kept on telling me to get a SAD lamp which doesn’t look like this
but is a lovely invention that emits artificial sunlight so your bodys Circadian Rhythm doesn’t get knocked out of sync which I can tell you now is bloody horrible. My only issue was that they have always cost a lot of money. I tend to compare everything to my shopping bill so when something, like a SAD lamp is priced at £100 for example my mind automatically goes into its whole little well rehearsed speech “you can not spend that on yourself, that it two weeks of food and your kids need to eat” and so it went on for years and years …. until last year (feels rather odd writing that) It was around September time that I noticed one for £50 in our local branch. I will mention at this point that this is not a paid review, I am simply just reviewing this product because it is the one I bought.
There is lots of information out there on the subject of which are best and why, but i got this one due to being able to buy it locally for a decent price ( it was on sale at the time too) but the main point is that it has to emit 10000 lux which i have no idea what that means either but it says on the box that it did so i got it. states that treatment should last between 20-90 minutes a day. The first time it was switched on was a shock, I wasn’t expecting just how bright it would be
Not knowing if these things took a while to work or if it was instant I was reluctant to get excited about it even though I have say the benefits were felt that day. I was more awake (possibly because I had a light shining in my eyes) and started to feel more positive that this might actually work. The reasons behind SAD make sense, especially with the type of lifestyle I lead, which is more naturally in tune with nature and have always wanted to hibernate in the winter. I have started making my stock in the winter time too, just for the fact that i hate going out in the grey wet weather and far too busy in the summer having fun.I have always said I am solar powered and this light really started to charge me up. Before long I stopped noticing the weather and had the same energy, enthusiasm and mood that is usually only seen in the sunny months. Some days were spent sat in front of it for longer than others, especially if I knew I would need more energy later in the day because I had lots to do or if small boy was being more challenging than normal. One thing I did notice was the sudden change in mood if I hadn’t had it on in a couple of days, my eating, sleeping everything was completely off. The big difference is that I have not had a break down this winter, even my eldest noticed the drastic change in me at Yule this year, everyone did even when the cooker stopped working properly. In stead of going into complete melt down I turned it onto the grill and rotated everything in the oven until it was done. I am not going to give the lamp all of the credit as
this last year has been a strong growing year for myself and mindset, but one thing i do know is that this lamp has given me the best winter since being a child out in the snow.
Do you have SAD or other mental health ‘issues’ and use the lamp for that too? perhaps you have never use one and have been thinking about it or perhaps you think its all psychosomatic either way i would love to hear your stories even if you have tried them and it hasn’t worked.