Which is what I am trying to do after it turns out that I may not of actually been handling things as well as I thought. The fact that I am on recovery from a break down is possibly a true sign of this. Don’t panic it was only a day thing when I had a child free house but it has knocked me about taking me a while to recover. I have had to step back from everything to concentrate on
healing thinking and processing everything. I feel I am not ready to start the fight again but need to. I do not like that fact that there are so many things I do not have control over especially when these things have such an impact on my everyday life and the lives of those I love.
I have thrown myself into sorting out the garden and being outside as much as possible, keeping myself to myself and not really knowing which direction to turn.
Today being Spring Equinox I have dedicated it to trying to get my head sorted out, the weather is not all that nice so there is to be no gardening today. I do not really have any actually plans though, yes there will be a fire later if it isn’t raining but my head is that all over the place I am finding it hard to get any focus on anything, even now I am all over the place and I am finding it hard to put thoughts into words so this is a very short blog post.
I do not even want to think about how the whole work side of things needs to be fixed but something needs to be done and sorted. I need my laptop to do what it is supposed to do.