I’m sat here under several blankets as the autumn chill nips at my toes gagging on coffee grinds as my cafetière isn’t the best, but my focus this morning is that of gratitude that I actually found the blooming thing. I was up at my usual time of 6:15 but soon came to the realisation that I forgot to get instant coffee yesterday…. I think it was the third step down the stairs!!! So while I was drink tea!!!! I hunted through the mess that is my house knowing that I had no doubt put it up safe. If it wasn’t found I was going to hunt down my muslin square to turn it into a coffee bag lol
Yes I know first world problems
A few other things dawned on my as I was coming down the stairs too…. Like the date!! I’ve been ill and not with it for two weeks ….. And it’s time I can’t afford to lose.
Two weeks ago I had a migraine attack, two weeks exactly to the date and I’m worried as half way through the night my head started to hurt again. I know I’ve been told I am premenopausal and that this is could just be down to hormones, it’s certainly not dietary intake and possibly not helped by stress, which there is a lot of right now and has meant my sleep is all over the place. Mother Nature has decided to forget any form of organisation over the past couple of months and this last visit has been excruciating with pain going through the roof and blood pressure through the floor resulting in me passing out a few times and generally not being able to cope with everything that I have to get done during the day. Let’s face it there is always a lot on my ta-da list.
I’ve also realised that I’ve completely messed up my budget for the rest of the month because my brain has been else where. It is also the week before payday and we all know how that feels.
The challenge this week is all about budgeting and making any food I have in the house last for a week, that and the £20 I have in my purse. This week I shall be meal planning. I am worried I won’t lie, I am going to be getting the boy to help with the meal planning too because he is my main worry. He is going through food fads, mainly with textures and will not eat soups, stews etc!!!!! Yup that is what we mainly eat at this time of year, even putting the ‘sauce’ type food with pasta is still making meal times a little challenging and adding cheese isn’t even helping. Of course his head makes the food issue worse as he ruminates over and over making it worse than it first started off as. He has always had food issues, especially around textures and mixed up food. He was fine if it was soup as its one colour, one consistency and after years of slowly introducing different solid bits to soups was ok with stews. We’ve had the “no food to touch” phase which was helped by using a segment plate & building bridges using veg and stories involving peas wanting to meet other veg etc. This was years ago and I thought we had got through all of that. I don’t do fussy eating. It could be the teenager In him or it could be the ASD or of course it could be a mix but what ever has brought on this new sudden phase doesn’t matter, what does matter is that I need to find a way of feeding him 4 times a day with food that is also ‘me friendly’ Oh and I have the extra challenge of not having a working cooker!! All we have is our slow cooker and a halogen oven that has a surface area big enough to cook 1 portion of food such as chips.
Plan for today …..
1: make more coffee
2: do a stock take of fridge, freezer and cupboards
3: pin the boy down to get an idea of the types of food he would like to eat … Figuring if his food issue is also a control issue this will help even more.
4: try and start planning some meals while trying not to panic.