Yule was a challenge but it all turned out ok in the end. Had a lovely day, dinner cooked great in my new cooker which made the day run the smoothest yet. Everyone loved their gifts and understood the IOU’s where needed.
I was relieved because no matter how ‘hippie’ people presume I am lots don’t realise that my brain still tries to pressurise me into creating the non existent ‘perfect’ Yule, you know the movie type I’m on about? Yes I’m fully aware how these things work and that it’s not healthy to try and live up to other people’s ideals etc etc and yet every year at some point I still find myself loading up judgments upon judgments but luckily not so they stick for any length of time.
Then came the start of two weeks off, being self employed and with HE it’s not often I have time off, how ever the past year has been very hard with challenges being thrown at me left right and centre leaving me physically and emotionally exhausted with the ability to break down in floods of tears in under 30 seconds. I made a promise to not only my other half, children and friends that I would actually take time off (rather than my usual ‘time off’ which is actually me still working but without telling anyone) this is why I’ve not been posting over the past two weeks and the stress is the reason why my blog has pretty much been neglected for a while. I miss the enjoyment I get from writing not to mention the therapeutic benefits, heck maybe if I had carried on writing then maybe I wouldn’t of been so stressed…. Hmmm perhaps a little bit of avoidance was going on there.
Of course with time off comes thinking and this time of year always paves the way for reflecting, assessing and planning. I don’t celebrate the new calendar year but more of the Celtic one, which some believe is in November just after Samhain while others believe that it’s at Imbolc in February. I decided years ago is that as an earth based belief system it seems that the winter time is when everything rests in order for the next season if growth and in order to be as in tune as I can I too would follow that pattern. November brings reflection, December when I asses the direction I am going and if it’s working etc while January sees planing and getting everything in place for the start of new growth with the start of spring at Imbolc.
Not only have I had time to think without distraction but I’ve also had the time to explore myself as an artist and creative person in general. I think the fact that I’ve spent months more on the more business development side of things than making things has left me feeling a bit of a crafty void especially as my own personal creativeness for personal pleasure has gone out of the window. Don’t get me wrong I love making things to sell for my business but it’s not quite the same. This has lead to an explosion of ideas that I’m currently trying to get in order so I can achieve more of a balance. I’m happy when I’m creating and I’m more productive when I’m happy so it makes sense. This burst has helped me push forward and I’ve already started working through my organiser and adding important spiritual dates and plans as well as the generic birthdays, dead lines etc
It’s also coming up to the two year anniversary of the boy being home schooled and after I speak to him may be starting up a blog just on him. It will be a good way of keeping on track as well as hopefully helping to inspire others …. He is a great inspiration after all.
So how was your New Years and festive time? Have you made any new plans for the following year?