I’ve lost count how many times I have gone to write this post without knowing where to start …. So I figured this way was as good as any.
It is my own fault for taking so long in writing my latest news and updates but it’s been that time of my life where I go inside my head. It happens at least twice a year, once at the start of winter when I spend a lot of time reflecting on the past year and then again at the end of winter when I start making plans. It also seems to be the time when my life also has a lot going on as all of the drama tends to happen around this time too.
My two boys are coming into their own at an alarming rate, I’m very proud of them but still miss their need for mum. My eldest turned 21 and has a much healthier attitude to life despite having a lot of issues to work through that I’m not going to go into. My youngest is battling through puberty and I must say raising a teen second time around is so much easier than first time around. Posts about him are now going to be all on one of my other blogs which is starting to come a long nicely.
My non biological kids are still trying to figure out who they are and how they fit into the world, a few are getting their faster than some while a few seem to have really found their place and are moving on in more positives ways in their life. Oh gets an extra special mention as she is expecting a little boy in the next few months. Aged between 19 and 24 this is quite normal but the drama at times has lead me to tears. At the moment things are as calm as they can be and each one learning their own life lessons so they can become the awesome people that I can see when I look at them.
The past month has been nuts. It all went a bit wonky (pretty much at the same time when Mercury went into retrograde) and even though I’m now ironing out the creases the second half of the month exploded like a fire work display of life changing events.
My application for carers allowance was accepted. I received back pay! I paid bills, all of them, the full amount and not only could afford to eat properly every day but managed to adventure with my other half including stopping over in Glastonbury…. With ….. Wait for it ….. SPENDING MONEY!!! And my goodness did I spend, including just under £100 on a coat and £17.50 on one skein of wool. All in all about £400 was spent. Oh and I have running trainers!
I’ve not been blogging because I’m still traveling on this amazing journey that has kept me fully engrossed and distracted from lots of online activity.
Instead what I’ve been doing is exploring myself mainly through creativity (let’s face it what else is it going to be?) The lack of pressure financially really has taken a huge weight off my shoulders freeing my up to enjoy life more.
Business is going slow but it is still going, I’m still yet to collect the rest of my work from town and then I can move on in new directions. As long as things move faster than they have been but why use that energy worrying about things beyond my control and as my business isn’t the only way to earn money it can become more relaxed and pleasurable. It also frees up time so I’m no longer having to work for 16-18 hours a day to fit everything in. I’m down to 10-12 hours a day and am able to even take weekends off. The new routine is taking some getting use to but it’s proving to be easier than some of the things I’ve had to work on in my life so all is good.
I will of course start blogging more, I’m not sure where all this is leading me so it’s quite exciting.